Thursday, 24 November 2011

Publication, Publication, Publication

So Friends, Family and Acquaintances, The time has come at last where I finally start working on my first comic publication :D
Publication is guaranteed but I can't decide where to begin, so I want you guys, mostly those who know me and my work, to decide for me.
I'll be setting up a poll for you to vote between Renegades, DreamWalker, T.R.A.S.H or my undisclosed mystery project.
I Am quite looking forward to seeing the outcome of this. Thanks in advance!!

Friday, 11 November 2011

Quick Update.

I'm designing a catalog, professionally for teh company I work for. It's great and all, tough work but I love it though. One thing I can say, I've done 7 different page layouts and I guarantee they pick the first one I did.....

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

I am...

As of this monday just been, A full time Graphic Designer. Hooraaaaayyy.

Monday, 12 September 2011

Burn Bitch Burn

Last year when I moved rooms I found so much old crap under my bed, my brother took a teddybear, melted its face into its arse and photographed it. I've never seen an inanimate object look so sad before.
This year, my girlfriend is moving in, and this time, my brother is taking destruction of unwanted property to a whole other level. He says its my comeback into videoblogging. Yes, Not only does he plan to decimate canvases, photgraphs and whatever other shit he can get his hands on, he wants to make his mark on youtube by having me film it. I have to admit, I am intrigued. He calls it vandalism, I call it creative art.

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Elsewhere in the land of Daryl:

I've become an adult almost overnight, its unnatural. I have a fulltime job with a pretty kushty wage, my loving, caring, all round wonderful girlfriend is moving in, and AND I actually have page roughs for T.R.A.S.H
Shock horror!!
I've come up with a pretty intense finale, which involves Isaac awakening in hospital, a house being burned down, Red discovering Kendra has been sleeping with her fella for, like, ever, And ultimately a 20 strong mob running Kendra out of town with Isaac and Red, new best buds, at the forefront.
It doesnt sound like much, but apparently according to my friends, after reading the full script they think its a quality ending.

Wednesday, 27 July 2011

Oh, I am totally obsessed with this band, they are incredible!

A much needed update.

So again its been a while since I last properly updated the blog with the recent going-ons.
This is for one simple reason, I've been working my fucking arse off for more cash. The only problem being is that all the extra hours I've done this month I wont get paid for until the end of august. FUCK. Which is also bad because I did next to no overtime in june due to certain events, so my wages will be barely enough to cover my rent. If I wanna survive I'll be borrowing the rest.
On the upside though, I've landed a two week paid work trial at a company full time. so if that goes well I'll be back on a full wage and earning almost a grand a month, which will be fucking sweeeeeet. the pay at this place is kushty.

Right, Art related shit!
Um, I'm working on a couple of fantasy style stand alone pieces for my girlfriend. Dragons and shit. I dunno if they'll be any good because although I've sketched them out in pencil on paper, I'm gonna full on paint them, on some canvasses I have. This is rare for me as I usually just digitally paint myartwork, but it's been a long time since I properly painted so I figured its time I got back into practice. Browny points. I have three pieces in mind. Knight male and Mage female couple with pet dragon, Mage girl and dragon, and bear king.
I'm also scripting T.R.A.S.H and the sequel T.R.A.S.H Reverb at the moment, as well as taking Dreamwalker through its second concepting phase, further developing the characters. Klay and Rizzla have been given a work over, and Mia has been completely renamed, and redesigned to better match Rizzla, they are husband and wife after all, and on paper the chemistry between them works better for it. Sh's much more punky and fiesty, but warmer too, and she doesnt look so out of place next to Rizz anymore, you really get a sense for why they are together.

Incase anyone is interested here's my current unfinished synopsis for T.R.A.S.H Reverb:
'4 years after the final events of T.R.A.S.H   Kendra has been run out of town and things seem to be finally returning to normal; or maybe not. James has left on his tour of duty, Bill has finally set himself up as a professional DJ, Tobias is off galavanting with his newly signed metal band, and the others, well they're doing exactly the same as always. Except Isaac who has finally settled down as a respectable citizen. He has a honest job, a semi-decent home, a stable relationship with the wholey sane Leona, and his days of fighting are far behind him. But not everything is buried in the past where it should be. Those responsible for his near death are still lurking around, quietly planning their revenge. But when a familiar face returns to town with newly formed ties to the inner city crime syndicates, gang crime sweeps the sleepy town, and Isaac's past catches up to him when old faces return to exact vengeance. Isaac and his friends are once again thrown into the thray, in order to save loved ones, and ultimately kick Her out of their town, again.'

its a work in progress haha! comments and critisims please.

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Oh and I am still working on getting my art blog up and running, once I do and I fill it with work you guys will be the first to know!

Monday, 4 July 2011

Please reblog this if you know someone, or have been affected by someone, who needs a punch in the face. People who need a punch in the face affect the lives of many. There is still no known cure for people who need a punch in the face, except a punch in the face. 93% of people won’t reblog this. Why? Because they probably need a punch in the face..

Sunday, 26 June 2011

Let 'er Rip

Mother just basically bet me £50 I can't get ripped by Christmas.

Game on muchacho

I'm biggest Drunken Monkey you know.

Somehow, without having a single penny to my name, managed to get extremely shitfaced again last night. Would have been great, had I not crawled home at 4am, passed out fully clothed on my bed, and woke up for work at 8. I tried to take extreme strength paracetamol, gagged, threw them back up, and then wandered to work no less than five minutes later. That was most brutal. It was a good price to pay for such a quality night.

WIN

Thursday, 14 April 2011

The Bearded Wonder!

So I have to apologise. I've sort of switched aligences. Not that I don't still love you. I do I really do. But after the museum visit on monday I've decided to start Video Blogging.

Check out my Youtube channel and Vlog Playlist HERE. Please Subscribe!!

Also, I've decided to not shave my beard at all, not even neaten or trim, until a time I do see fit. I want to see how much time it takes before I look like Gandalf. Or at least like Jeff Bridges in Tron Legacy! Hah, like that motive wasn't obvious at all =P

Wednesday, 13 April 2011

One of These Days

One of these days your heart will stop and play it's final beat.

But it's alright.

Easy for you to say.
Your heart has never been broken.
Your pride has never been stolen.
Not yet, not yet.
One of these days.
I bet your heart'll be broken.
I bet your pride'll be stolen.

I am in love with the new Foo Fighters album Wasting Light. It's fantastic.
So today is a new day. After this weekend and my denial of my dream job I've found myself inspired and re-invigoured with new strength and willingness to thrive. I'm one of these people that believes that theres a reason behind the turns life takes. I flunked out of uni for this oportunity, and I failed this oportunity in order to learn from it and learn I have. I know what I need to do and I damn well am going to do it. I have everything I need. I've let personal matters get in the way of my ambitions before but never again. I don't regret anything but I have learned from it. Despite my failure this weekend I'm in a good place at the moment. I'm happy, I'm thriving.
And because of that, I'm working towards something big. Ideas are forming that I wouldnt have had before and my artwork is taking a massive leap forward.
This is the new me. Stronger, better, more adept.

But still an idiot and complete lunatic, the stuff that makes me loveable. HAH! =D And modest too. Thanks Scott =P

Somethings never change.

KAPOW!

So I did get a tad drunk friday night, getting up at 7am on saturday for a 2 hour train journey was pretty brutal after just 2 hours sleep. But yeah,
The weekend was Awesome!! I may not have got the job at Marvel Comics but I still had a quality time! Got to see 10 minutes of exclusive footage from Green Lantern, that was intense.
Played Portal 2!!! I fucking loved it, can't wait until the game is released.
Spied a few comic book celebs, pretty cool
Watched the first episode of Steven Spielberg's new TV show Falling Skies a few months before it airs on TV. I have to say, its definitely worth checking out when it airs.
And then lastly, the secret advanced movie screening. 'Super' was the feature we were treated to a few months ahead of its release. What a fantastic movie. Completely over the top, violent, hilarious, trippy, mental film. Rainn Wilson, Ellen Page and Kevin Bacon all putting out top notch performances. And lets not forget Nathan Fillion as the idiotic Holy Avenger. I was cryng with laughter the whole way through. Seriously, go check it out when its released.
On top of all that the weekend was really good. The place we stayed ended up being quite nice. We were paying per person per night and only paid for two of us, but managed to have Laura stay with us too without paying so that was a bonus for me =D
Monday Scott and I did the Museum Tour, hundreds of photos of which, not to mention the Kapow! ones are on my facebook, check them out. The day was so much fun, I ended up filming a couple of short Video Blogs, which I will try and upload on here, if not then onto youtube and then link on here.
Anyway, I havent slept for longer than 3 hours a night for the past week so I'm off to catch some Z's. Adios.

I leave you with this very short clip.

Friday, 8 April 2011

I am Spiderman.

HOLY FUCK.
So yesterday I was all cocky and confident about my portfolio because of how awesome it looks, and I do think it looks good. I was all prepared, like 'yeah this weekend will be a breeze'
Then I'm sat here today, print my tickets for the weekend, everythings gravy, then I print out my top sheet for my folio, and find out two things. The first is that I will recieve a callback while at Kapow this weekend, so I will be interviewed then and there, which is fine and dandy I guess I can handle that, best prepare for questions. And the second, is a small line of text that reads. 'Interviews with Marvel Comics'
My Jaw hit the floor. My dream job, working for Marvel, sat right in front of me. I'm being interviewed for a job in they're company. I nearly died. Infact I still could. I dont think I've ever been so nervous in my life. AHHHHHHHHH.
So yeah, Tomorrow should be fun, best not get too drunk tonight!

Thursday, 7 April 2011

:D

I now have a professional portfolio.
I have to thank Scott Frazer for all the help. He's an absolute hero.
I'm so psyched for Saturday now. Can't wait to hand this bad boy in to publishers. I hope I get some good feedback and a job out of this, Especially after all the effort thats gone into all the work, scanning, printing and laying out of this folio. I am hungry. I havent eaten since lunch yesterday. I fancy a big fuck off burger.

Tuesday, 22 March 2011

I really should go to bed. So why don't I?

Friday, 11 March 2011

I want Killzone 3 so so sooooo bad.

I blame Toby for getting me playing Killzone 2 again tonight. I need to finish it.

Wednesday, 2 March 2011

quick update.

um....
yeah.

last week.

Liquid on monday was sweet. til the surreal end of night.
Tuesday night, Toby bday meal was fun :) I loves him and the ippy crew.
Wednesday...not much happened.
Thursday night/ friday morning/Friday Night/Saturday morning was awesome. Happiest I'd been in ages. Dunno whether its going anywhere now, sucks =/ Still remnants in my room, need to tidy up. too lazy.
Sunday. Sold my first piece of artwork.

this week:
Monday night colchester. Brilliant!!!
Tuesday meh
Today: DS2 Severed was intense. now I'm rushing cuz I realise the shop shuts in 10 mins and I wanna buy acoholic supplies 'just in case'
=D

Wednesday, 23 February 2011

this is all rather odd.

So I'm sat here sketching away and all of a sudden for no reason at all I am losing control of my arms. First my left arm starts shaking uncontrollably and now my right hands at it too.
Am I losing control over myself, both mentally and now physically? Its most unusual. Maybe my body is giving up on me for good.

May not be a bad thing tho =P

Ha! Though I really must plough into my artwork, my portfolio wont gather itself.

Oh but if I do die, I wanna be resurrected as an Elven Warrior in some far away mythical land. That would be cool.... I think the ears would suit me

Tuesday, 22 February 2011

I think last night could well have been the grand finale of T.R.A.S.H

Thursday, 17 February 2011

And so in the end...

I've decided He gets the Girl.
Its cliched, but I will present it in the least cliche way possible.

This makes me happy.
so get this.
In the space of only a few hours I have had to possibilty of a full-time job come up. AND a chance to get my comic books going.
The comic book thing is a long shot. In April I have a chance to show my portfolio to a company from Los Angeles who are looking to recruit some unknown artist! Totally psyched! So I have a month and a half to prepare my portfolio. Better get cracking.
Plus I've been asked if I was interested in becoming a mates apprentice. Its alot of manual labour but its a job that just dropped out of thin air.

WOOP!

=D

Monday, 14 February 2011

Happy Puke On Your Shoes day. here's a gift for my followers.

So I know alot of my friends are getting impatient with me atm. Everyone is ranting about T.R.A.S.H and moaning at me for the lack of actual finished work I'm producing in relation to it. So I thought to wet apetites and maybe shut some people (Bobby!) up, I'd give you guys a little insight into my thought process and my scripting process. Theres no dialogue written down, nor storyboarding yet. That comes next.
AND THEN I promise I will get some actual work done and onto my portfolio.

So here you go guys. Here's a little teaser.
Please for the love of god DO comment and critisize me pleeeease. Thanks :)

Sunday, 13 February 2011

Thursday, 10 February 2011

Where's my creative spark gone?
I seem to have again lost the ability to sketch.
However! I am gonna crack on and keep listening to loud inspirational heavy metal and Drum n Bass (good mix) and keep spurting out shit work until something decent comes along.

So yeah....

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! I'll get some art on my other blog soon I swear!! =P
Someone needs to take my xbox away from me otherwise I'm never gonna get any work done!

Why am I still up?

Oh 'cause I'm suddenly hooked on the DS2 online multiplayer.
One more match then bed....
Ok and one more....
and one more....
last one this time I swear...

Wednesday, 9 February 2011

We're just TRASH

So it turns out I now have the entire prologue and first chapter of T.R.A.S.H scripted, just need to finish up character concepts and then get concepting on the pages.

Also come up with a genius animated preview set to about 10-30 seconds of the song American Trash by InnerPartySystem. It works perfectly.
The only problem being it takes 12 images to animate one second, so thats a grand total of 120 to 360 images I have to draw. Soooo that wont be done for a while. Once I'm into the swing of things I'll start working on a bit each day and it'l be done in no time at all.

=D

On another note. My smaller lip rings are far more comfortable and less silly looking. Hooray! and I can eat properly.
BK Double Whopper was to die for. Epic food baby though.


Adios!

Teenage Resistance Against Sh*t Happening

I am Determined to do as much promotional work as possible for T.R.A.S.H.

Here's a brief and crappy synopsis:

Isaac and his friends lead a pretty uneventful life in a boring little town where everything is quiet but not everything is always how it seems. Whilst out on a recovery drinking session with his best friend Samuel, Isaac bumps into a Kendra, a girl he once had a very brief encounter with months before. As their friendship blossoms over the following nine months events unfold and suddenly life isnt quite so dull anymore.

Love, Laughter, drink, drugs, videogames, movies, blood and tears follow in a series of different funny, dramatic and sometimes heartbreaking situations.

Bob reckons its gonna be like skins crossed with Scott Pilgrim which is pretty much what I was going for, and as Scott said to me earlier, pretty much how the last year of my life has been.
So yeah, I guess you guys are just waiting on some artwork now...

Tuesday, 8 February 2011

suddenly just realised so many different little things and that they all come together as one.

How did I not see it sooner! I'm such an idiot.

hmm......
I need to do some thinking and preparation
I swear to god I'm actually gonna post some artwork on my other blog soon!

Monday, 7 February 2011

in the name of science

I've actually signed up for medical and clinical trials. Desperate times?

Well for the possibility of earning up to £120 a day for taking pills why not. I'm stone cold broke after all.

Plus theres also the slim chance I may develop superpowers. RESULT!

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If I die because of this I want everyone to know Bobby Bell was the one who convinced me to sign up.

Geeeeeekkkktastropheeeee!!

Sunday, 6 February 2011

New room layout and new bed makes me happy. New very sturdy non creaky bed. My new room layout makes it feel very snug and cosy. I like it a lot.

:)

Friday, 4 February 2011

Dark Master within, I will fight for you.

So quick update before I go to work.

Still in love with my snakebites, awkward to eat atm but that will pass.
T.R.A.S.H is coming together nicely, charater concepts are complete just need to name the characters, Ink the sketches, scan and colour them and they will be on DarylFinlanArt in no time at all! Probably do that after work, if I dont end up starting my third playthrough on Dead Space 2. I so wanna start Hard Core, but I need a full day due to its lack of ability to save the game.

ANYWAY

I have finalised my ideas for my first two tattoos, Again, just need to ink the sketches, scan and colour them and I will reveal them here first. I also need to decide on the text and placement on my body for the first one.

Oh, and on a sad note, My 4 year old Skullcandy headphones finally died. :( R.I.P red loweriders. Back to my chunkier ones it is! =D

Anyway, TEA. Salt Water. Shave. Shower. Work.
Adios!

Thursday, 3 February 2011

I think a self re-invention is in order
I think after I finish this second playthrough on dead space 2 in the next hour I should get some of my artwork together and whack it onto my other blog seeing as its been empty for a few days.

So yeah. Check back soon!

Wednesday, 2 February 2011

I wish I was Isaac Clarke. Minus the dementia and the dead girlfriend trying to kill me constantly. Good times.

Sucks that this guy really is Isaac Clarke, voice actor, facial mapping and Motion capture. Lucky son of a bitch. This guy is my new hero.

Gunner Wright you are one beautiful human being. YES! I AM OBSESSED. =P

I have an Idea for a Dead SPace fan art. Will post on my other blog when its finished.
Dead Space 2 was so totally worth the wait. The game is phenominal, and the end, well that was on a whole other level! One of the best 10 hours of gameplay I've had for ages. Love it.

Time to replay it!

Tuesday, 1 February 2011

Snake Bite!!

I am so not photogenic today. So damn tired and Hungover to the maximum. But still.
Got my snakebites pierced today. Love them!
Awkward for tea drinking atm, and the rings are huge, but once the swellings down and I have my smaller rings put in next week it will be awesome!! =D

so yeah, new look bizatches!

Monday, 31 January 2011

Dead Space 2

is fucking incredible!
I knew I saved that quarter of a subway sandwich for a reason!
I have the midnight munchies.

Cyber dreadlock ninja's have been half concepted. The helmets look cool, the rest of them however, not so much.

hmmm. On other things, I'm stumped again.

Sunday, 30 January 2011

I see fire in your eyes again.

I think.... I'm back!

=D

I can feel the creativity flowing.

Cyborg Dreadlock Ninjas? Oh yes oh yes. Strange concept I know but trust me, once its on paper, it will look sweet......probably. Look out soon for their attack on my other blog DarylFinlanArt
That and an update on Trash. or T.R.A.S.H. I havent decided yet.

Teenage Resistance Against Sh*t Happening. Thats actually a quality title. I have my mum to thank for that as she was the one who came up with it.

:O

That is the most I've eaten in ages. I'm bursting at the seams. That was soooooo tasty!
The anticipation of my Dad's specialty Roast Potatoes is killing me.
SO HUNGRY!

I have a Title!!

For my stupid, lame, slightly biographical, half based on truth, comic of my life.


Drumroll please.



TRASH!

its perfect!
Pay Day tomorrow. And you know what that means

Hangover tuesday.

New Blog.

Hey avid followers. All probably two of you. Jump over to my new blog http://darylfinlanart.blogspot.com/
to see my Portfolio of work.

Its empty atm but will be updated soon with character concepts, comic pages and general pieces of 'Art'


Go now! And Favourite it too!
Wooooo. I slept for nearly four whole hours :D

Now I just need a bit more....

Actually think I love Tobuscus :P

Saturday, 29 January 2011

Still no Dead Space 2 :(

Monday's arrival is long awaited
Its quarter to six in the morning and my alarm goes of in two hours telling me to get up and go to work. I wonder if its worth even attempting to sleep.
Insomnia's a bitch.

All the days are beginning to blur together and I swear I'm starting to lose grip on whats real and whats not. The drunk pixie on my shoulder agrees.

Friday, 28 January 2011

cant sleep. Too much going through my mind.

Thursday, 27 January 2011

figured out how to upload videos from my phone, found this and thought it looked coooooooool


I took this in december when I visited the Natural History Museum in london. It looks funky :)
Fuck those people.

Sudden burst of motiviation.

BRING IT

♪And I am, what I am, what I am, what I am, what I am, a Train Wreck♫

3OH!3 in may with INNERPARTYSYSTEM supporting?


HELL YES
127 Hours is an amazing film.

Wednesday, 26 January 2011

FUCK! why is it whatever I try to do that I think will help I always manage to flip over and it make everything worse.

GOOD SHOW LOSER.
Oh wait. Hangon I've got it muddled up. Whenever I think things will get worse I make them better.

I'm motherf*cking Superman.
I love my brother, he's a sarcastic argumentative little prick but even though he's going through worse shit for him than I am for me, he's been there for me, and he doesn't even realise he has. Same for some of my friends. Just by hanging out at my house, they've helped me out. Shame about the mess they've made :P

UM... usual geekness

Crysis 2 is hands down the BEST online multiplayer  FPS I have ever played. I cant wait to get hold of the full game in March. Same with Bulletstorm, thats pretty epic too. I wonder if I can afford it come february.
More Geekness, Black Dynamite and Fanboys are two of the most hilarious films ever. I love them.

Thats the extent of interesting stuff in my life at the moment and to be honest, its all a bit shit. Thats how much of a loser I am.

Tuesday, 25 January 2011

well that was brutal. For them anyway.

Peachy :)
Every time my phone goes off my heart jumps out of my chest. That Vibrate setting is Killer. Probably shouldn't keep my phone in my shirt pocket either.
You were never really here. You're that niggle in the back of everybody's minds, that irritating voice that holds us all back. I've got news for you sister. I killed you.

Monday, 24 January 2011

Numb. From too much awesomeness

Wednesday, 19 January 2011

Rizzla

Concept Art for Dominic 'Rizzla' Jones, Klay's younger brother. The meaner of the two brothers, Rizzla is a man of little words, but has an attitude behind it.


The 'stronger' of the two, Klay has the brains while Rizzla has the brawn. He's always getting Klay out of trouble.

Seemingly almost void of emotion, Rizzla has a softer side that rarely sees the light of day.

Nicknamed Rizzla as he is always seen with a cigarette in his mouth.



Comments and Critisisms wanted!

Monday, 17 January 2011

woah.

well thats an interesting and unexpected turn of events. How very odd.

Today has just been strange, there's been a wierd vibe Ihavent quite been able to place my finger on.
I've been in a wierd mood all day. I've been perfectly content, but a tad, odd.
I've spent alot of the day reminiscing silently to myself, and fell asleep at my granparents lol.
BUT.... I've suddenly got my artistic groove back. I managed to sketch something half decent for the first time in ages, and all of a sudden I'm inspired to do lots and lots of work. I really want to invest in some new A3 and A2 canvas sketchbooks and lots of ink.
Bring on the artistic rain! I'll have a portfolio together in No time!

hmmm, its almost the 20th :D

Saturday, 15 January 2011

:)

the last couple of nights have put a huge smile on my face :D

roll on the 20th =]

Saturday, 8 January 2011

hate being ill

so there I was, feeling much better bar the cough, thinking oh yeah, tomorrow I'll be right as rain for work, and then what happens, I threw up a few times this evenin and now I feel like shite again. Hmmpf
 Now I may have to call in sick in the morning, and I really didnt want to.

Friday, 7 January 2011

:)

She used to get inside my head. Then I realised she didn't have to, so I scooped my brain out with a rusty spoon,  built it a lead case and put it back in again. Now She can't do shit. She tried though. It started to rain though and she melted away. HA. Karma

haha

I would like to retract the silliness of my last blog post as
1. I didnt die in the night
and
2. I feel alot better today
Although I do still have the horrendous cough!

Thursday, 6 January 2011

shit

well that panicked me.

I just checked online and I have all but one of the possible of symptoms of swine flu.
 I mean I have a sore throat and a bad cough now, and not be able to eat. But the headaches have stopped and my nose isnt runny anymore, just blocked. Plus I in no way feel bed bound, or the need to stay in the house all day. I refuse! I've been out and about.

Fuck this, I doubt I have it. I'll be fine

I'm so stubborn

Wednesday, 5 January 2011

Maybe...

I should use all this to my advantage and do some work. I haven't drawn, sketched, or painted anything for ages, and I have so much unfinished work. ANd i've always found I draw better when I feel like shit. Though I am kinda shaky. Hmm.

Maybe this is a chance to try and focus. The quicker I start churning out decent work, the quicker I can get a portfolio together and hopefully find some decent work and get out of this shithole of a town. I aint rotting here any longer than I have to

Sick as a Pig

Blah

I am so unbelievably ill its unreal. My head is burning up but the rest of me is ice cold. I'm freezing my tits off wearing five layers in my own room. This is how I know I'm ill because its unusual for me to be cold in here. Its like a fucking sauna!

I didnt sleep well last night. I was tossing and turning all night and was stuck half awake and half in a dream. Like I could see my room and I knew I was being awkward with the duvet but at the same time I was dreaming I was flipping envelopes and stuffing them with cotton in order to change the thicknesses. I know right, wierd. and it happened all night.

I'm rambling shit. It's all I'm good at.

Fuck.....I still have no idea what to do.

oh, but I'm still Awesome

ugh.

I dunno what it is but I feel like death. I can barely sit and type this. My head is pounding so much I keep blacking out, my eyes are watering and I can barely focus. Its taking me ages to even type just this. My nose is closing up and breathing is difficult, my lungs are trying to push their way out of my chest, and on top of that, I feel so hot and yet so cold at the same time. I keep shaking and I can't control it. I'm wearing a gazillion layers and I'm still freezing, and my room is always boiling.

I'm such a child. MAN UP loser. Haha, I love me.

Tuesday, 4 January 2011

hmm.

I think I've done the right thing.

She was Fat, She had to go.

...

If I stay in this room any longer I think I might actually explode.

Update -----

I didn't. I just almost wet myself. But luckily I didn't do that either

what do you do...

When you've forced the one good thing out of your life for good?

Find something better! And I did. WIN

Uphill.

Its time to shift my focus. I gotta prioritize. I've got a lot of thinking to do.
Sort out my Art, CV, a job. Get back on track as an Artist.