One of These Days

One of these days your heart will stop and play it's final beat.

But it's alright.

Easy for you to say.
Your heart has never been broken.
Your pride has never been stolen.
Not yet, not yet.
One of these days.
I bet your heart'll be broken.
I bet your pride'll be stolen.

I am in love with the new Foo Fighters album Wasting Light. It's fantastic.
So today is a new day. After this weekend and my denial of my dream job I've found myself inspired and re-invigoured with new strength and willingness to thrive. I'm one of these people that believes that theres a reason behind the turns life takes. I flunked out of uni for this oportunity, and I failed this oportunity in order to learn from it and learn I have. I know what I need to do and I damn well am going to do it. I have everything I need. I've let personal matters get in the way of my ambitions before but never again. I don't regret anything but I have learned from it. Despite my failure this weekend I'm in a good place at the moment. I'm happy, I'm thriving.
And because of that, I'm working towards something big. Ideas are forming that I wouldnt have had before and my artwork is taking a massive leap forward.
This is the new me. Stronger, better, more adept.

But still an idiot and complete lunatic, the stuff that makes me loveable. HAH! =D And modest too. Thanks Scott =P

Somethings never change.

KAPOW!

So I did get a tad drunk friday night, getting up at 7am on saturday for a 2 hour train journey was pretty brutal after just 2 hours sleep. But yeah,
The weekend was Awesome!! I may not have got the job at Marvel Comics but I still had a quality time! Got to see 10 minutes of exclusive footage from Green Lantern, that was intense.
Played Portal 2!!! I fucking loved it, can't wait until the game is released.
Spied a few comic book celebs, pretty cool
Watched the first episode of Steven Spielberg's new TV show Falling Skies a few months before it airs on TV. I have to say, its definitely worth checking out when it airs.
And then lastly, the secret advanced movie screening. 'Super' was the feature we were treated to a few months ahead of its release. What a fantastic movie. Completely over the top, violent, hilarious, trippy, mental film. Rainn Wilson, Ellen Page and Kevin Bacon all putting out top notch performances. And lets not forget Nathan Fillion as the idiotic Holy Avenger. I was cryng with laughter the whole way through. Seriously, go check it out when its released.
On top of all that the weekend was really good. The place we stayed ended up being quite nice. We were paying per person per night and only paid for two of us, but managed to have Laura stay with us too without paying so that was a bonus for me =D
Monday Scott and I did the Museum Tour, hundreds of photos of which, not to mention the Kapow! ones are on my facebook, check them out. The day was so much fun, I ended up filming a couple of short Video Blogs, which I will try and upload on here, if not then onto youtube and then link on here.
Anyway, I havent slept for longer than 3 hours a night for the past week so I'm off to catch some Z's. Adios.

I leave you with this very short clip.

I am Spiderman.

HOLY FUCK.
So yesterday I was all cocky and confident about my portfolio because of how awesome it looks, and I do think it looks good. I was all prepared, like 'yeah this weekend will be a breeze'
Then I'm sat here today, print my tickets for the weekend, everythings gravy, then I print out my top sheet for my folio, and find out two things. The first is that I will recieve a callback while at Kapow this weekend, so I will be interviewed then and there, which is fine and dandy I guess I can handle that, best prepare for questions. And the second, is a small line of text that reads. 'Interviews with Marvel Comics'
My Jaw hit the floor. My dream job, working for Marvel, sat right in front of me. I'm being interviewed for a job in they're company. I nearly died. Infact I still could. I dont think I've ever been so nervous in my life. AHHHHHHHHH.
So yeah, Tomorrow should be fun, best not get too drunk tonight!

:D

I now have a professional portfolio.
I have to thank Scott Frazer for all the help. He's an absolute hero.
I'm so psyched for Saturday now. Can't wait to hand this bad boy in to publishers. I hope I get some good feedback and a job out of this, Especially after all the effort thats gone into all the work, scanning, printing and laying out of this folio. I am hungry. I havent eaten since lunch yesterday. I fancy a big fuck off burger.

I really should go to bed. So why don't I?

I want Killzone 3 so so sooooo bad.

I blame Toby for getting me playing Killzone 2 again tonight. I need to finish it.

quick update.

um....
yeah.

last week.

Liquid on monday was sweet. til the surreal end of night.
Tuesday night, Toby bday meal was fun :) I loves him and the ippy crew.
Wednesday...not much happened.
Thursday night/ friday morning/Friday Night/Saturday morning was awesome. Happiest I'd been in ages. Dunno whether its going anywhere now, sucks =/ Still remnants in my room, need to tidy up. too lazy.
Sunday. Sold my first piece of artwork.

this week:
Monday night colchester. Brilliant!!!
Tuesday meh
Today: DS2 Severed was intense. now I'm rushing cuz I realise the shop shuts in 10 mins and I wanna buy acoholic supplies 'just in case'
=D

this is all rather odd.

So I'm sat here sketching away and all of a sudden for no reason at all I am losing control of my arms. First my left arm starts shaking uncontrollably and now my right hands at it too.
Am I losing control over myself, both mentally and now physically? Its most unusual. Maybe my body is giving up on me for good.

May not be a bad thing tho =P

Ha! Though I really must plough into my artwork, my portfolio wont gather itself.

Oh but if I do die, I wanna be resurrected as an Elven Warrior in some far away mythical land. That would be cool.... I think the ears would suit me

I think last night could well have been the grand finale of T.R.A.S.H

And so in the end...

I've decided He gets the Girl.
Its cliched, but I will present it in the least cliche way possible.

This makes me happy.